This Time, This Year

It's November 1st. And from the moment I woke up this morning, I placed myself in the past, exactly a year ago. What was I doing at this time? What did I do next? I relived the morning and it felt like my heart was going to explode.

Just one short year ago, sweet Nathaniel woke up in the arms of Jesus and everyone's lives changed. It's like the world stopped turning. My sweet Wiebes; they have been such an inspiration and blessing to everyone, even to those who don't really know them.

I thought that I would be crying all day long; but instead, I looked at pictures, watched videos and felt blessed. I felt blessed because my life was touched by this little baby and his family...and even though it sucks worse than anything else that he is not here, he has still blessed my life. His short life impacted mine.

This time, this particular time will never be the same for me. But this year, instead of being sad, I rejoiced. I sang, I smiled, I laughed. I mean, how can you look at this sweet face and not smile?

 

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if the thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life

Are Your mercies in disguise?