Day 18: Sad Days

 

This sweet baby boy should have turned one this week. But there is no precious earthbound baby and there is no Leap Day on which to celebrate his birth. I still get so sad for my friends and their loss, but I see them and how they conquer each day...it is only through Christ that they are able to survive this pain. How is this even possible? Because each day they focus on Him and know that He is carrying them through this valley. He is with them always. They can turn to Him for comfort and talk to Him when they are feeling confused.

He is our Father. He loves us. He is jealous for us. He wants us to depend on Him. How often do we forget that it is through His blood that we are even able to be forgiven? It's at the foot of the cross that we can lay our burdens down and surrender everything to Him. Everything.

It's an amazing release and I know that I struggle with giving God my all. I still crave that control and I know that this is an area that I am constantly growing and failing in.

I look at my friends and see them. It is inspiring and even though it came unbidden and unwilling, they are an inspiration to many. I love my Wiebes and continue to pray for them, especially through these upcoming milestones.