1. "It was a beautiful letdown when I crashed and burned; when I found myself alone, unknown and hurt."
I'm not out of the woods yet. Me & B, we're not out of the woods yet either. We still have a long road to travel; together and individually.
I crashed and burned. You understand that now. I felt alone, here and there. I was hurt (more because I had done the hurting). Unknown? That is the struggle. I have spent the last 8ish years being "known". Now...I am unknown. I am one of the populace. I do not matter. I am invisible.
That hurts. It's slightly selfish, part honesty and a whole lot of going from everything to nothing. I don't see the beauty in it yet. The fire is still smoldering from the crash and I can't see clearly yet. There are days when my selfishness and wickedness try to rekindle the embers of the fire trying to die. But I know that beauty rises from the ashes. I'm very much looking forward to that day.
2. "Let my foolish pride forever let me down."
Um, if you know me well (or maybe you can tell right away), I'm a very vain, selfish and prideful person. Not the greatest combination, but I think most musicians tend to turn slightly this way. But anyways, I digress.
We don't learn unless we see the mistake. My pride, so foolish, is always going to rear its ugly head. And I want it to always let me down so that I can continue learning and growing. My pride, in this situation, very much let me down, probably to the lowest I've ever been. It is extremely humbling when you see the path you took through the jungle, with its poisonous plants and vines that strangle, instead of walking on the paved path with handrails and lovely tour guides.
3. "We are a beautiful letdown; painfully uncool. The church of the dropouts, the losers, the sinners, the failures and the fools."
THIS. This is what Christ is about. This is what the church is about. So I'm about to head in a different direction, pointed at some of those who are in the church. I apologize in advance.
You. I love you. But you are the reason people don't want to come to church. You are the reason why people think Christ is fake. You pretend that you are perfect, that you don't make mistakes. You immediately judge others on their mistakes because, well, YOU would never make them. When someone falls, you don't help them up. You stand around them and say, "Maybe this will teach them."
You treat me differently on Sunday mornings. I can see the contempt in your eyes and yes, it hurts me. Because you are me and I am you. We are the same. We are both sinners. But because I was a leader and fell, you felt gleeful. Everything was right in the world now that I was no longer on top of it.
We are the church of the uncool. We stand out. We are the church of the dropouts, the people no one want. We are the church of the losers. Only the losers get a crown. We aren't winning the race because Christ already won it. We are the church of SINNERS. A sin is a sin is a sin and we all do it. We are the church of the failures. We admit defeat and try again. We rise up. We are the church of the fools.
You are included in this. And I'm telling you this because I love you. I still care about you. You are my brother/sister in Christ and forever will be.
4. "I don't belong here. Feels like I don't belong here."
We are not of this world. This is not our home. We have one life to live, so live it well (oh yah, the quotes are rolling heavy today). Shine Christ's light in all that we do. Be the example. Fall and get back up again. We are not meant to be comfortable in this skin.
So...yah, perfectly imperfect. We are a beautiful letdown.
It was a beautiful let down
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful let down
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do
In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in, fit in
Until I found out...
[Chorus]
That I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
It was a beautiful let down
When you found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful let down
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
And our dark water planet's
Still spinning in a race
Where no one wins and no one's won
See, I don't belong here (I don't belong here)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
I don't belong here (I don't belong here)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come
Kingdom come
Your kingdom come (I don't belong here)
Won't you let me down yeah
Let my foolish pride
Forever let me down
Easy living, not much like your name
Easy dying
Hey, you look just about the same
Won't you please take me off your list
Easy living, please come on and let me down
We are a beautiful let down
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures and the fools
Oh, what a beautiful let down
Are we salt in the wound?
Hey, let us sing one true tune
Yeah
I don't belong here no I don't belong here
Now I don't belong here feels like I don't belong here yeah
I don't belong feels like I don't belong here
No I don't belong here would you let me down
Come and let me down you always let me down
So glad that I'm let down yeah yeah come on and let me down
'Cause I don't belong here please won't you let me down
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