Hi.
My name is Cassandra and I'm an addict.
The post title is quite pretentious, but in fact, that's exactly what my attitude was way back when. I'll admit it- I was an attention junkie, like MAJOR big time junkie. If the spotlight wasn't on me, I'd do my best to get it turned my way and make sure it was on super-bright so everyone knew who I was.
I've been like that pretty much since I turned 13. I went from this overly-shy kid to an over-the-top teenager. It was all about how I dressed, how I acted, what people thought of me.
Don't get me wrong. I had fun with it and I think a lot of my friends had fun with it too. Although, pretty much half of everything I did in jr. high and high school makes me wish I had paid just a little more attention to things more important rather than how much I wanted to be a rock star. But if I hadn't have been who I was, I wouldn't be who I am now.
Does that make sense?
I like who and where I am at this exact moment. Is this where I thought I would be ten years ago? NO WAY. But I'm enjoying being a stay-at-home mom. I'm enjoying having all my hair one color. I'm enjoying wearing jewelry like a big girl.
Every now and then, I kind of miss my "Cassandra-style". I think I bring some of it back every once in a while, but really, that was a different era of my life. I'm growing up. Heck, I'll be 30 in less than 6 months. I've been in baby-making mode for the last 4 years, for crying out loud!
So, what exactly am I trying to say here?
That I'm still cool, just in a cooler kind of way.
I've been like that pretty much since I turned 13. I went from this overly-shy kid to an over-the-top teenager. It was all about how I dressed, how I acted, what people thought of me.
Don't get me wrong. I had fun with it and I think a lot of my friends had fun with it too. Although, pretty much half of everything I did in jr. high and high school makes me wish I had paid just a little more attention to things more important rather than how much I wanted to be a rock star. But if I hadn't have been who I was, I wouldn't be who I am now.
Does that make sense?
I like who and where I am at this exact moment. Is this where I thought I would be ten years ago? NO WAY. But I'm enjoying being a stay-at-home mom. I'm enjoying having all my hair one color. I'm enjoying wearing jewelry like a big girl.
Every now and then, I kind of miss my "Cassandra-style". I think I bring some of it back every once in a while, but really, that was a different era of my life. I'm growing up. Heck, I'll be 30 in less than 6 months. I've been in baby-making mode for the last 4 years, for crying out loud!
So, what exactly am I trying to say here?
That I'm still cool, just in a cooler kind of way.
1 comment:
Do you remember that song you wrote~ "I'm a wi-ild child- blowing, blowing in the wind; I'm a wi-ild chi-i-i-ild, something something something, hmmmmm hmmm, hmmm hm." Obviously I blanked out on the last part of that verse, but I totally remember the tune! Twelve years later and it's STILL stuck in my head! LOL
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